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I’m talking about Cinderella’s sister, the drama. (Cinderella-ui unni).
there will be no spoilers in this post, dont worry.
but up to the end you are yelling, PLEASE JUST BE TOGETHER!!!
you are both bad ppl, but no one on Earth is perfect, and yet, we all deserve love, and you 2 have found each other, WTF is wrong with u 2?!! quit trying to punish yourselves and just give in! its okay to be selfish and keep the person u love to urself. geez. please.
like goodness, why r u ppl so difficult. ur feelings are too damn complex, and u let the wrong ones dominate ur decisions all the time. 1 person warms up to the other and that person gets colder in return, are u kidding me?
i’m dying here. plz just love one another <3
SERIES SUMMARY: (same as the reason for life) LEARNING HOW TO LOVE.
this blog is too boring to stalk.
so anyways, here goes, more personal shizz.
i am practically always alone. so what i do during that time consists of activities that people do by themselves. putting polkadots on my nails. reading occasionally. listening to KPOP for hours on end, same with youtube. and even as far as teaching myself how to read and write in korean.
its just that the people around me, not including my nuclear family, are completely unreliable. they have let me down a combined number of about five thousand times. why the fuck would i trust them ever again? whats more fucked up and seriously pisses me off is when they say we should hang out and so we make plans and i get all excited to get out of the house and then, of course, in true style, they BAIL. wtffff asshole! how inconsiderate! and they dont apologize but whats worse is that they dont even call to say its off they just dont show up @ all.
so how do i deal with all these shit feelings that occurrences like these cause? i stay by myself. i dont believe ppl socializing with me, i dont believe people who make invitations. i dont even want to go out no more, shit, man! and when i talk to people i am out of touch cuz i, being by myself, dont do the stupid shit that they find time to ditch me to do, like drugs and sex. so idk wtf they’re talking about and what advice i could possibly give them. stay inside? try kpop?
i remember one summer, like 2 summers ago when i 1st got into youtube, i was in a book store and it was towards the end of the summer. a girl from my school recognized me and approached me. i wanted to run away and hide in a hole. she told me i looked pretty and she liked my new hair of w/e and i did my best to remember how to socialize, i said she was pretty too and pasted the best fake smile i remembered how on my face. but i just wanted to get out. i wanted to hide in a hole and never tell anyone about myself again. she walked away sensing something wrong and prolly thought i was weird lol. oh well. anyways….
so thats my life. and you say, well, surely things are looking up, thats 2 years ago! well they aren’t. the only people around me are nice but uncaring and completely unreliable and undependable dirt clods who dont deserve my friendship. not that i’m that flippin great, but that i too deserve to be treated with some courtesy, like an average human. well find some other ppl! right? wrong! people like that dont exist. or if they do they’re in the same lot as me and they stay the hell away from people and are away at home doing the same old nothing daily
now this sounds a bit depressing. but i’ve learned to cope by desensitizing myself to the situation. i feel…just numb about all of this. like oh i wish…nah…whatever. that type of thing. i think i’m kinda done. i feel the same after writing…it didnt help. bummer. ehh..w/e.
p.s. another really really annoying thing is having to remind myself not to foster and real hope of joy when events are planned involving me, because i build up this hope and then its an epic letdown. so its better not to feel anything and if it goes well, so what? which is really not fucking fair! why would i have to protect myself from happiness? or hopefulness? are u joking?! its so inhumane! but its gotta be done. although its such massive unfair bullshit.
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i like invisible children personally.
CELEBRATING ONE YEAR!
yep.
i’ve had this blog for a year now. so theres a video to celebrate what i’ve learned from asia and whatnot. whooop-de-lalalala ^_^
whatever disabilities you think you have, most can be overcome by a simple change of mind.
a positive attitude, perseverence….NEVER QUIT.
vid credit: s4ur4bh
explanation: “The story of a deaf and mute girl who learns to play the violin against all odds.”
CELEBRATE
i write mainly on sundays, this sunday i will be at a lake, with my class. it will own….like the 3 math assignments i am behind on will own me. =[
anywho, just letting u kno to wait another week for info on fti…um…hongki is in egypt…anywho…subscribe to jinnienomuyeppo on youtube thats where i get all my info…and xharudo and some others…theres also a person who will keep u updated in japanese if ur…japanese…obviously…lol…
my korean is coming along swimmingly…i’ll learn those dang vowels soon…i’m working on pronounciation, i sang “lovesick” to my friend from korea and he actually understood everything i was saying, even though i have no idea what i myself am saying………korean doesnt seem difficult.
you should buy a book called “D!rty Japanese” and also you should read PostSecret…why? because i am and i like them, dont question me.
that D!RTY jap book is HILARIOUS, i dont wanna learn japanese, i just wanna laugh, and it does the job splendidly.
PostSecret, connects you to the rest of the world, are u kidding? so many great secrets.
LEE EON WAS THE MODEL DATING “ANGEL” IN COFFEE PRINCE. HE DIED TODAY. AUGUST 21, 2008. HE WAS SO YOUNG =[ THIS IS WHY YOU DONT BUY MOTORCYCLES BOYS, ITS not COOL, ESPECIALLY IF UR MARRIED. {i dont think he was worry not}. i was quite fond of him. just tells you how quickly life can end....pray for his family and friends please. [august 21, 2008]awww man, i was fond of the guy :’[
original document from below found at: http://www.mahalo.com/Lee_Eon_Dead
August 21, 2008: Just two years after the music video that launched his career as one of South Korea‘s most popular young actors, Lee Eon died in a motorcycle accident at the age of 27.1 According to reports, Eon collided with a guardrail on an overpass in Seoul and died at the scene.1
Fast Facts
- Birth name: Park Sang-min
- Hometown: Busan, South Korea
- Began career as a model
- Credits include the TV dramas Coffee Prince, Who Are You? and Strongest Chil-woo
- Neck was broken in accident
he was an only child…wow…SUCKAGE.
miku
teruki
kanon
bou
these people talk so beautifully, appreciating that they even MET in this big planet where there are no guarantees, and i wish i was a fan back then when bou was still there, he is such a kind compassionate sweetie :’[ grab some tissues, you’ll CRY. this is their last speeches @ their last LIVE concert.
they’re all crying and the crowd is shouting “ganbate” or ganbare? i’m not sure, i think it means good luck…and they are trying to pull themselves together and 3/4ths of their girl fans are crying too..made me tear up and i don’t even know what this movement is all about..bouuu :’[[[
i thought that only happens in africa, and since i dont watch the news…well…i heard it over the radio!! milk and bread costs are WAAAAY up. same with gas. our new president better have a plan for these issues…but thats not the POINT! the point is this :
worldwide starvation?!
the 2ND COMING – is it upon us?
i think i’m scared….how do you guys feel? and what do we do to help, when even america – the world’s only ‘superpower’- is affected?! this is bad…but i guess it had to affect us for us to care…but will USA be to busy to care about other nations now?
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